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by Skyler Pia

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an assortment of shit i'm working on and released post-ep's. a bit of a hodgepodge, v much a work in progress if u can even call it a 'work' at all

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released March 7, 2017

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Skyler Pia Portland, Oregon

gets emotional, writes songs about getting emotional

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Track Name: poison ivy (rosaries)
so artificial
are the frames around which i let my flowers bloom
neglected pistils
and withered tendrils to hold me tight

i never wanted
to make my shell into life itself
but i’m still clinging
and every day’s just oxidation

i’m never moving
i’ll just stay here, i’ll just stay here
once again i’ll let him take me
a rosary around my neck
asphyxiate me (dear god)
i’ve never been happier than i am now
decrepit beauty, take me home
let me stare into the sun
Track Name: i don't love you
i guess i haven’t really changed
i’m still the solipsistic fuck you ran from
the one who held you in the sea
the one who ruined everything he laid his hands on

and i can feel you in this room
i’m almost lying next to you
i’m almost lying to you
i just can’t lie
i just can’t do this again
i don’t love you
any less than i did
Track Name: i will not write about you
i will not write about you
despite the warmth of your palms
and the weight of your words when they leave your throat
it seems strange
to place this divide between myself and my better self
but even that better self
could never be as good
as what you once projected onto me
but we were flawed
as i escaped into myself
you were never there
you were never there
even when you were there
you were never really there

and i will not write about you
cause i can’t write about anything
without reverting to that motif of falling
falling on pyres, falling onto strange beds
falling in love again
god, i can’t imagine it

i want you, i want you
to hold me, to hold me
to hold me to the fire one last time
for old time’s sake
i’d let you break me one last time
oh, can’t you see my weakened state
i’ll be as brittle as you want me to be
turn my muscles into string
turn my words into noise

but i will not write about you
we’re just children after all
we’re not articulate
we just feel too much
and we feel alone
we feel alone
we dance around what we mean to say
we dance around acceptance
the same way we danced with each other
now i sway to my own breathing in my own room
in my own company
oh, i need nobody else
as badly as i need you
to hurt me as badly as i hurt you

and i will not write about you
the way that you wrote about
how my sadness fucked you up
how my heavy load was too much for you to look at
i will not let you
see me as nothing more than my head
i will not let you in
i will not let you in
i will not write about you

i want you, i want you
to hold me, to hold me
to hold me to the fire one last time
i want you, i want you
to hold me, to hold me
to hold me to the fire one last time

i will not write about you